I used to think that only jealousy would kill a person.  But I was wrong.  Envy kills.  It kills a whole person’s being.  It makes a person PARANOID and PATHETIC.  Making up stories, imagining things, and actually believing in them, that it tends to take up their whole being.  The sad thing about it is that envy makes a person’s life miserable and unhappy. 

What is happiness?  Happiness is being content with what you have.  Unless a person reaches that point of contentment with what she already has, and appreciates the new things that come her way (no matter how small they may be) that person will live in misery.  I pity the person who lives in envy.    I pity her because she never sees the light of day.  She never sees the beauty of life.  All she harbors is hatred for everyone around her.  She becomes blind, and refuses to appreciate the blessings that she already has in her life.  She even becomes hateful about the good things and the achievements that other people make in their own lives. 

At a certain time in my life, I used to envy the more fortunate people who seemed to have happy families, happy, harmonious relationships and the like.   I would watch them, stare at them and wonder what it would be like if my own life was like theirs.    I prayed for this everyday of my life.  I thanked God for what He was already giving me, but I asked for more.  The feeling of envy was killing me.  It ate the most part of me, and I dreaded waking up each morning just to see the happy people around me.  But then I still believed God probably had better plans for me.  And yes, He did.  He always has plans for me.  

Today, I live each day wondering what He has in store for me the minute I open my eyes when I wake up.  God is full of surprises!  He makes me totally happy, and fulfilled!  Enviousness has long gone, and all I can say for those who are in pain and discontent:  pray and have faith, God has His plan for you.  We can never dictate when and how He intends to give us what He wants to give us.  But we should always be thankful for every single thing that comes our way.  Thank Him even for the trials, because these trials make us strong.  The blessings all come after these trials, and they come in abundance!   Don’t wait till your last breath to say Thank You, Lord, because by then, you may never have the chance to realize that life is beautiful, after all.

I’m in the mood for soft music, a nice poem that touches the deepest part of me… my soul.  I was surfing the net and came across this nice poem written by someone who probably feels just the same way I do for a loved one.   It makes me realize, continually remember and appreciate how lucky, how fortunate and blessed I am to have what I have at this time of my life.  Life is beautiful, life is special, life is God-given.  I thank God for life!

So folks, here’s that nice little poem  i found for all you who are in love…just like me..

Inside Of Me

If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we’re apart

If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me

In all the ways you comfort me
the way you hold me near
the way you know just what to do
to chase away my fear

The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much

Knowing I can talk to you
about any and everything
and knowing together we will get
through whatever life may bring

I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you

Though with each new day, each sunrise
we can’t know what’s in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you more

So if you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know I blessed I feel
to have you here with me

- Written and owned by Jay Scott -